Happy 6th Monthsary Baby :)

Hey Baby. Surprise surprise. No? I know its not on time but at least its on the correct date right? Okay. First of all, I want to remind you how much I love you. I love you! 

We've been together for 6 months now baby. Laju kan that. It feels like baru yesterday we jumpa each other bah. Funny how before we were official, we're already like.. you know. Naughty. Like couples already. So yeah, look how far we've come baby. Despite the crap I put you through, you're still here with me. Just so you know now, I'm shivering(haruskah padah?) Cold okay. Raining. I imagined a lot of stuff tonight. Like, we would be playing under the rain by now. Or you'll be playing the guitar, and maybe sing for me? Yes? Or probably just going to annoy each other. OR you'll make me cry for being too sweet! Ugh and OMG. Remember our 5th monthsary, its like last month. So fast kan baby? And you made me cry just by reading your text. Sigh, I love you I love you. Currently listening to 6 months now. Wish to have you in arms now baby, I'll let you be manja tonight. :')
I love the way you smile.
I love how you have that unique pout of yours.
I love the way you talk.
I love the way you hold on.
I love how you make me feel safe.
I love how you'll always remind me every single day how much you love me.
I love that you're always there for me, no matter what the consequences is.
I love how you always know what to do and say.
I love love love your smell. :p
I love the way you stare at me.
I love watching you sleep at night.
I love how you'll never let me go, even in your sleep.
I love how annoying you can get.
I love how retarded you can get, and there's just time I feel like punching you.
I love how you selalu layan my "manjaness."
I love how you always kiss my forehead even on random times.
I love how we hold hands in the car.
Your voice in the morning. When you're sleepy. When you sing. ;)
I love how you sanggup lend me your favourite shirt. And honestly, I don't feel like giving it back.
I love the fact that you even followed me for my check up at the hospital.
I love how you'll always wait for me to sleep first, then you'll sleep. but then you also memang cannot sleep. Haha.
I love how you'll get annoyed when I kacau your hair. 
I LOVE EVVVEEERRRYYYTHHHIIINGGG ABOUT YOU OKAY. 
Sigh. I hate it when I always want to cry. Baby.. Rindu you :(
.And also.

Baby, I’m sorry that you had go through all this. You don’t deserve this sort of treatment from me. You don’t deserve it at all. I’m sorry for hurting you. I promise you that I will really try my best to control my mood. Im sorry and really love you very much. I promise to try my best so we can live happily k. I love you very very much. Oh! And did I mention how much I miss youuuhhh?! I do. :)

Dear Keith,

Happy 6th-Monthsary to you!

Thanks for all the precious moments especially when we're together.

Thanks for loving me of course.

I'm happy to know that you love me more and more each days.

I myself too! Love you deeper and deeper as time goes by.

Hopefully there are more and more anniversaries for us to celebrate together!

Yours truly ♥

"Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction."

Yours truly ♥

Love :)

After two years of living life not knowing what love is. I finally found someone who's very unexpected, that I never thought would be so important in my life. I never felt this way before, never thought the fear of not wanting to lose someone is very scary. The feeling of having someone to look forward to after waking up in the morning. The feeling of wanting to be anywhere in the world only with them. The feeling of being able to act like a total idiot in front of them and still calls you Mine. Also when you're in a mess, no matter what you wear, how you look and still calls you Beautiful. The feeling of being loved by someone unconditionally, and it is probably the best feeling in the world. You know what?

I found mine. :)

The best feeling in the world would be being able to have him by your side through your ups and downs. He who would give you anything just to not see tears rolling down your face. He who is proud of having you as his girlfriend. Gave you the love you need, be there to comfort you, supports you, and guide you through your darkest day. 

Baby :) ♥

I've never been love-crazy before, and to be honest, I find it so hard to fall in love again. Before. Then, you showed up. You gave me, my life a brand new start. I have never felt this way before. Look how far we've come. I learned a lot, from you. Never thought that I could ever love a person this much. You gave me everything, a little too much already. The sacrifices you've made. From when you stood up for me. For always being there for me. Always. Thank you for not giving up on me just yet. Thank you for always staying true to me. I know that, but I'm just jealous okay? You know what I'm talking about. I love you not only for what you are but for what I am when I'm with you. I love you no matter how retarded you can get. And we can get retarded together. Remember that night, when you acted like a girl. And I can't stop laughing. Your hand gestures and all. Its still in my head. Haha. Keith, you drive me crazy. You have no idea how much I love and how much I hate it when you stare at me too much not knowing the reason why. You may never know how important you are to me or how much I care for you, but you are and you will always be. Bear in mind that I couldn't afford to lose someone I've learned to care about so much.

There is no words that can explain how much you mean to me, how lucky I am and how gratefully I am to have someone like you in my life and just how much of an amazing person you are. You gave me this feeling that no other had given me whenever I talk to you. Your face it just makes my day so much better and everything just seems so much brighter. My whole body and my self just feel like at any second is about to explode with love and happiness. I love this feeling, the feeling you gave me more than anything in the world. I always ask myself how did I get so lucky with an amazing boy like you. I never truly knew the meaning of love or knew what it was, I always wondered to myself that the feeling you gave me maybe the feeling of love. I think I found what I have been looking for my whole life. My one true love, that's all I have ever wanted out of life and you are the one. :)

Yours truly ♥

18.06.11

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage."
Yours truly ♥

My King :)

As we all know, Christmas is just around the corner. I'm just hoping for only one thing and it would be.. I want My King, My Hero, My Daddy to come home for Christmas. Please? Sigh. Its sad how its hard for us to get close to each other like we did before. There's so much I wish to tell my Dad, so much I want to share. I want everything back to normal. Its not that we're having conflicts or anything. Its just the distance. I understand the workloads, the tension and things like that. Its just funny how after all that, we haven't been talking much. Not even a text, or a phone call from you, Dad. I don't blame you for not doing that anymore. I know you will, eventually. Like you said. 'Need to get this done first, okay?' :') Yeah old man. I miss you, that's all. Just remembering how we used to text like couples before. Even now, I still keep texting even though I know you won't reply. There's time where you will reply, but very late. Haha Dad, I don't mind. As long as I know my old man is doing fine there its fine for me. Its sad knowing that my old man's there all alone.. Working so hard for his family. Then once he finished working at night, he'll go home to his apartment and cook by himself, clean by himself, sleep alone. Its sad knowing your Dad's working so hard, and yet he still have to do things by himself. Despite how tired he is. Release those tension of yours Daddy, and come back home to your family. I love you Pa :)

"I have a simple philosophy: Fill what's empty. Empty what's full. Scratch where it itches."

Yes, I got my very first tattoo at age 18.

So yeah. Got it last month, 3rd November. So yeah its been a month plus now. Was accompanied by my brother and Jaymie. It was worth the pain, oh and yes I cried a little. A LITTLE. Okay? Got my tats somewhere hidden and it was inspired by someone.. Don't wantlah I mention his name here, later he bangga. Haha. Yeah, him. Funny how after I got this tattoo. Me and Jaymie sempat lagi go bayar bill then go main pool. Tsk tsk. Tambah again still bleeding that. Neh. Jaymie got soooo jealous that she wanted one as well. Hahaha. So yeah, she got her tattoo designs ready. Can't wait till she gets her first tats too. :)

Why this tattoo? Um, I've always wanted a chinese character tattoo and people are surely gonna try to figure out the meaning. Well, now you know. Seriously, its fun. Oh and it means "Loyal and Faithful"

Tadaaaaa ~

All grown up.

This shows me that time goes by way too fast, and this is probably 18 years ago. I wouldn't lie cause I don't even know what's my age for my first picture. Mama raised me goooooood. :)

"Time goes by fast, people go in and out of your life. You must never miss the opportunity to tell these people how much they mean to you." - Fidelia Tj

"There is no spectacle on earth more appealing than that of a beautiful woman in the act of cooking dinner for someone she loves." - Thomas Wolfe

Meet the boyfriend!

My first post for my new blog will of course be this :)

My Mr. Awesome of course :)