Take me.

How can I be so stupid? To let you slip away. I had you in my arms, but I let you slip away. I wanted you back, but now it's too late. You've already said goodbye, and now that love turned to hate. I want to go back in time, and fix all that was wrong. Change all of my regrets, so we didn't fight as long. The regrets are what fucked it up, and they were all my fault. I was so immature, I should have acted like an adult. I then broke my own heart. Now its just too late, and I can't undo anything. I still do love you, &always will. But nobody knows. No one seemed to understand, what my real intentions are. We are no longer together, because of what I was trying to prove. It was a bad decision, &that now I want you here. Never far away, but always near. Was really hoping for you to take me back, &catch me when I fall. I need you right now, more than anything at all. I admit I made a mistake, over stepping some boundaries which made me look fake. I always said I would never do the things I did &that is the reason why its so hard for you to forgive. Its been so long, so many times we said we'd try. Only to turn around and make each other cry. Remember how its was when we first started out? Two different people, yet we shared every thought. We fell so fast, maybe fell in love too soon. Made a huge decision that now we cannot undo. I admit my mistakes, I have paid for what I've done and still am. So why is it like this, we can;t even talk. You call me a liar and say you don't care. All the while my love for you is still there. I never meant to hurt you, really. Never wanted to cause you any pain. Since you left me right about 3 months ago. My life hasn't been the same. I owe you so much, I have so much to prove to you. So I will end this with the hardest thing I'll ever have to do. Goodbye baby.. If you ever changed your mind. I'm always here. Waiting. I will always be in love with you. I'm sorry you can't trust me, and won't ever let me in. I'm sorry you don't believe in me. And that I could not win. I'm sorry for not being perfect, and being able to break your fears. I'm sorry for messing up and causing all your tears. I'm sorry I can't fix it, and make you want to stay. I'm sorry I wasn't good enough, and now I have to pay. I'm sorry I ever doubted it, and made you second guess. I'm sorry I was so stupid, you haven't seen my best. I'm sorry for the things I've done, I'm sorry I can't be your number one. I'm sorry I always put you to the test. I'm sorry I put you through hell. I'm sorry that sorry is not enough. I'm sorry for all the dumb stuff. I'm sorry for all the pain, and for not cleaning the stain. I'm sorry for the things I've said. I'm sorry from head to toe, I'm sorry I can;t take a "no". I'm sorry for needing you, that's just something I tend to do. I can't help it. I'm sorry that I just want you to see that I don't want you to ever stop loving me. Sorry I wasn't good enough. Sorry I let you down. Sorry for my tears &sorry for my fears. I'm sorry that I'm human, sorry that I care. I'm sorry for being hardheaded. Sorry for never listening. Sorry for forgetting things and asking stupid questions. I'm sorry I'm not as smart. I'm sorry that I made you say "we're over, its not worth it." I'm sorry for the mistakes I made, and that they broke you. I'm sorry and I would be glad to do all that I can. I wake up every morning, hoping to get a fresh start. Praying I can undo, the mistakes I've done. Everyday its the same thing, my memories came to haunt me. I never knew it'd come to this, and now I'm regretting it. Basically I'm saying sorry, as usual. Sorry for my stupidity. If you ever find it in your heart to forgive me, I thank you with full sincerity. If there's even anyone to blame, its me.
Yours Truly ♥