Lost.

Long story short;

After a long, long sleep. I woke up &started praying. Nearly missed my exam. Got in late with tears in my eyes slash panda eyes. Apologized to my lecturer. Finished an hour early. Starting to think that I fucked my first exam. Met Josh, poured my heart out. Holding in my tears. Went home, all smiles. Jaymie came, cried. Went to CitiCafe with Jaymie, nearly cried till she said something funny. Had coffee smoothie. Went to the hospital, met mummy. Glad she's okay. Managed to make her laugh. Went home, now. Starting to cry, angry, locked myself in my room. Havent eaten ever since. Hands are shaking. All tears. Tried to study. Ended up ripping off the pages. Threw my blackberry, nearly fucked it up. Thinking of cutting my hair. Dry lips. Migrain. Hungry but I lost my appetite. Shaleen managed to forced me to eat. So I suggested Mcd. Went there, together with Jaymie. Had fun, barely. Got home, tried to sleep. Panic attack, thought I was going to die. Nausea. Last but not least, I hate myself.

Bye.