Miri Raven.

Long story short. We won third place. Our very first International Tournament for touch rugby, held in Brunei. And also our very first medal! It was all worth the waking up at 5am, long journey, sun burns & injuries! Congratulations again Ravens; together we fly! :)

Now, stop criticizing my team. Stop underestimating us, as we just started this amazing team last year. We have proved to you that we can do this. And this is our proof to you.

Yours Truly ♥

This is for you.

There are those times when you feel like nothing could possibly go your way. You look outside and feel that there is no way the world is still spinning the way it was when you were happy once. You try so hard to get past the emptiness that you feel within your soul but know that nothing is ever going to be the same. You hate knowing that the one person so special to you doesn't feel even a fraction of the emotions that seep from you, and you wish that there was a way to tell him.

I;m lost, scared, alone and I can't take it anymore. And the way he treats me is destroying me. He makes mefeel like I mean so much to him but I feel that, that's impossible. He holds such a vulnerable thing captive and that thing is my heart/. He's so close to breaking it but so close to setting me free I'm willing to risk it. It hurts to be so torn between so many emotions. I wish it could all just stop. I know that you're happy and I want you to know that, when you're happy. I'm happy. Because I would do anything for you, because you mean so much to me. It hurts me to know that the one thing that brought a smile to my face and made me happy, is gone.

My love for you was so strong, and I was never in love with someone else as much as I was with you.

You want me to tell you the honestt truth? Yeah? Well, here it is. I dream about you every night. Okay maybe not every night. I spend endless afternoons thinking about you. Somedays, I don't think about you at all, but that's rare, because I usually don't go a minute without thinking about you, or seeing you in my mind. When I first met you, I never thought that I'd fall in love with you. For a few minutes you made me feel as though I actually meant something to someone. I know you;ve had enough. I know you're tired. I know you don't want to ever feel that way again. I am so sorry for everything. It was a stupid  thing to do and I knew that even when I was doing it. I love you so much but when you got so angry, it drives me nuts. I know you don't mean anything by it. But I'm so insecure when it comes to your love. I'm still amazed that you didnt just tell me to get lost after disappointing, hurting you many times. I gave you a hard time. But now, you did. You're obviously exhausted. Sigh. 

Today was just one of those days where everything I did reminded me f you and every song I heard somehow related to you. I hate days like today because they remind me of the one thing I don't have,. Its really painful to say goodbye to someone that you don't want to let go but its even more painful to ask someone to stay if they never wanted to stay. I'm holding on to someone that used to be there hoping it will come back, knowing it won't. 

Yours Truly ♥

Heh.

I'm not an expert at relationships, I don't know how to handle every fight we're going to have, and I will never be a perfect person. We're both still young, and we still have a lot more to learn. But I'm willing to take chances, to risk it all, and learn everything there is to know just so I can keep us together. I won't give up on you. I promise.

Been wanting to tell you.

I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you. How good you look when you smile. How much I love your laugh, I daydreamed about you on and off, replaying pieces of our conversations, laughing at the funny things that you said and did. I memorized your face and the way you look at me. I catch myself smiling again at what i imagined. I wonder what will happen the next time we are together and even though neither of us know what the future holds. I know one thing for sure, you're the best thing that ever happened to me. Sigh.

Yours Truly ♥

Something to share.

There will always be that one guy who's willing to carry you when you're tired. I found mine, but then. I lost him. :')
When you found that guy, you are lucky. This is not just about you carried by him when your feet stumbled. This is about a love that is true, sincere and pure. He'll take any chances just to keep you safe and warm. A guy who is indeed ready to sacrifice his whole life for you. Definitely, he is a guy worth loving. There are great chances that you and him can live together forever happily. Likewise, a guy like him can make you feel loved, secured and bliss in a thousand ways.

Yours Truly ♥

The day it ended.

18 June 2011 - 28 February 2012
Eight months, one week and 3 days :')

.i miss.

FAIL.

MLC, Nedlands. After our Christmas Lunch 

Northbridge. After our karaoke session.

8am. The Jetty.

:)

♥

In the train. On our way to city.

Our last social.

Northbridge.

Teabee's 17th birthday :

“When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.” 

Yours Truly ♥